Jesus saves, I spend.

I just want to know

2010-01-11T02:55:00.001-08:00

Why

are

you

Alive?

Where the road parts

2009-12-17T04:20:00.000-08:00

You were the only one that didn't fold

but I just broke right down for you in an attempt to gain control

You were the only one that didn't fold

(I think that's why I like you so much.)

Jake,

2009-11-29T01:19:00.000-08:00

All the evidence points in one direction
Says I don't need you physically around
I've got your voice on tape
I've got your words in me
I don't want anything else
I don't want anyone else
Thing that I had but I dropped
All that I had but I dropped
I want you back and forth
I want you up and down
I want you inside out
And you say that I don't have this down
I've been practicing out loud

I want you back and forth
I want you up and down
I want you back and forth
I've got your voice on tape
I've got your words in me
I've got your voice on tape

till I can laugh at my face beneath your feet.

2009-11-15T17:27:00.000-08:00

Skillet on the stove

it's such a temptation

maybe I'll be the special one that doesn't get burnt

What was I thinking?

If we weren't such good friends, I think that I'd hate you.

Contact.

2009-11-05T03:10:00.000-08:00

I'm ready to breathe again.

& I know that's lame to post given the circumstances nowadays, but it's true.

come now, sleep.

come, now sleep.

Yams.

2009-08-30T01:11:00.000-07:00

For a moment I was warm
& the world made sense.

OH HAY!!!

2009-08-12T11:51:00.001-07:00

TracieDarlingPhotography.blogspot.com

Wahoooo.

it was so easy, & the words so sweet.

2009-07-07T11:37:00.000-07:00

To celebrate 4 months (mostly) well spent

I present to you

Chinmen:

For Landon, I was going for a Shel Silverstein inspired simple chinman.

I like the way it turned out.

Landon doesn't think he can draw at ALL. I firmly disagree.

I think he did a great job with the design and execution of my chinman.

I like that because he has beardy scruff it looks like it has hair.

CHINMONSTER!!!!

The end.

Special updates!

2009-07-06T12:32:00.000-07:00

Last week was Landon and my 1 year anniversary.

I thought about a bunch of different ways I could write about him or us or something that would probably just induce vomiting in anyone that read it...so I want this to be simple.

He took me to see Jaws at the Enzian Theater which was SOOOOOO cool. I have loved that movie since I was a very young child so it was really epic seeing it on the big screen with our pitcher of root beer. Very romantic.

people always tell us we act like we're from the 1950's, & sometimes I agree with them because of the nights like this.

He bought me a salad and surprised me with cookies.

He gave me the comfy seat and sat on the metal chair.

He holds my hand wherever we are.

He gives me the last bite of everything.

& he smiles the whole time.

simply put. He's my best friend.

I love you.

congrats on the internship.

updates!!

2009-07-06T09:54:00.000-07:00

so much going on lately...

Landon finished his first degree program and is going in for an interview for a dub stage internship today. This is very very exciting and I am excited to see if he gets in or not. If he gets it he will have his first IMDB credit by the end of the summer! =] woo hoo for him. Keep your fingers crossed.

Landon's brother, Ryan, came out a couple weeks ago to hang out here in Florida while he defended his thesis for his online program from Full Sail. He got his masters and graduated the same day Landon did so their parents came out to celebrate that weekend.

It was SO much fun. We went on a tour of the school with Hunter Menning who is incredibly interesting.

We ate tons of really good food and enjoyed each others company. It was awesome having them out here.

I'm leaving for Utah in 3 days (still in denial).

My cousin, Tommy, is coming home from his mission in Russia. It will be really fun hanging out with him again. and tons of other people I haven't seen in years. crazy.

Then after a week in Utah I'm going to California for the rest of the summer.

It's going to be weird existing with out Landon around to laugh with, but I'm still happy about it.

I get to play with my babies.

Life will be good.

okay pictures.

I need love

2009-06-01T10:41:00.000-07:00

And I'm on Twitter. Forgot to mention that.

FOLLOW ME HERE.

these next couple weeks are going to suck.

I need love.

Sweet.

2009-05-24T11:22:00.001-07:00

Hooray for Hemme.

2009-05-23T11:23:00.001-07:00

Hello!

Here's some exciting news!

As some people know my brother, Timmy, is living out here for a few months working with Christy Hemme (dancer, model, TNA knockout and now super bad-a singer) as they are starting to get really serious with her band HEMME.

It's made up of Christy (you can find her pretty much anywhere...Check this out)

Eric "Erock" Friedman (ex Submersed, Alter Bridge, Daughters of Mara & some Jeramiah Red) he's on guitar and he is genius. It's in his bones. I've never seen anyone with a brain like his.

Garrett Whitlock (ex Submersed) who KILLS on drums.

and Timbone Miller (j-red) slappin da bass.

So I started hanging out with them while Tim and Erock were staying at the Tremonti's house & it's been way fun watching while they write and create the demos for the new album.

& Landon is now in his last 2 months of class where they have Session Recording & a Producers Showcase.

What they are expected to do is find an artist, bring them into the studio to record a single, mix the song, put together a whooole bunch of other stuff (copyrights blahblahblah) and in a presentation they're supposed to "sell" the artist. & a bunch of industry professionals judge all the groups to pick who rocks (& sells) the hardest. (his group is gonna win.)

It all came together too well. We got HEMME in the studio this week to record the song "Deepen Me" which is soundin SO good. and they're going to start mixing tomorrow.

I was asked to come in and take pictures of the studio sessions. (They'll be ready tomorrow after I get them band approved.)

AND here's my exciting news.

Christy needed a promo shot of the whole band for a magazine and other sites and she asked me to do it!

It was way fun, totally last minute and turned out completely awesome.

We went to the lakehouse where she lives and looked for some fun spots to take them. It was raining so it was hard to get outside, but we did for a bit. It was really pretty on the dock with everything so cloudy and wet.

We picked our favourites and she sent them off to her publicist.

You can now find them here, here, here, here, here and here. ok I'm done linking.

The whole shoot will be on my website tomorrow.

Needless to say her publicist got them around.

I don't know what magazine it's going into yet (they picked the black and white one) which is sweet. Tim is looking real retro in it.

It reminded us of an old school record cover.

So now I'm asking you to be a pal.

View them on any of the sites (you can rate them on the first link) and comment away. Tell your friends, your pet, maybe your Grandma...(my Grandma liked them.) Add HEMME on myspace.

The music they're writing now is coming out so good. Christy has been growing so much as an artist. It's so rad to see. It really surprised me how honest and sincere she is about the entire project. It's much more important to her than just another outlet of entertainment. (which is what you would assume coming from a WWE wrestler turned singer)

So. Assume nothing with Christy Hemme.

She's rad, the music is rad, the pictures are rad, life is rad. Rad goes with rad.

Ok. I'm done.

I have so much to say

2009-05-22T13:07:00.001-07:00

I have way too much to say.

My brain may explode from every update I have going on within me.

I cannot write right now.

So I'll leave you with this.

Let's be honest

2009-05-11T23:14:00.000-07:00

Today sucked.

Everything about it was completely and totally lame

so to make myself feel better I looked at this. (& many other pictures from this photo shoot with Fisher and Ty)

& I just thought I'd let you know I'm feeling much better now.

Oh, the power of pictures.

I mish my babies.

Gatorville.

2009-05-09T13:18:00.000-07:00

Landon had a half day off last weekend so we decided to go to Gatorland.

I have to be serious for a second and tell you that it has been a sincere dream of mine to go to Gatorland ever since my brother, Jeff, served his mission out here and brought home pictures of some serious alligators jumping to eat chicken out of people's hands and a real sweet pen.

SO This was a very exciting thing to be happening to me.

I think I might have been just as excited to go there as I was to go to Disney World on Landon's birthday. hah.

And I really was going to post pictures on here but it takes way too long for my patience.

I just ate about a half a block of tofu and I think it's messing with my head.

So I posted them on Facebook riiiight here

we got to feed gators beef from only 2 feet away.

and we watched the gator jumparoo.

and gator wrestlin.

and we ate gator nuggets.

which is actually chicken.

which I'm pretty sure is the same chicken they feed the gators.

It was a very lovely day.

& I got a souvenir pen. =]

Tracie lately...

2009-05-08T11:09:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile.
I've realized the biggest reason I don't post is because I haven't gotten around to editing all the pictures that I want to post so I'm going to get over that real quick and post them like the unedited in camera ghetto goodness that they are.
Heres a multiple post day to catch up.

First.
a couple weeks ago Landon and I decided to drive down to Cocoa beach.
It was after his classes for the day so we didn't even leave till late afternoon, but we both really just needed to get out of winter park.
so we did.
(I actually did edit some of these pictures.)

Yes. there are children in that stroller the man is dragging backwards with one hand.
Twins actually...

That one is for Alishuh.

I feel like I will learn a lot about blogging from these posts.
Hopefully one thing I can learn is how to post pictures right.
So they don't do what they did in this one.

Other than that I was really happy to see an ocean.
I just needed to hear one again.

It only takes a mooooment

2009-03-23T18:04:00.000-07:00

Hooreeey!
I've been in Florida officially for 2 weeks.
It's been lovely, yet still jobless. =/
I'm going to fight for an interview at Cheesecake Factory tomorrow.
everywhere else thus far is not asking for work. (I love being put "on file") Oi.

I'm also still searching for places to take pictures. (& people to take pictures of...) Hopefully the singles ward will help in that area.

There are a TON of shows here that I'm really excited about.
but those will be pointless if the job doesn't show up...
so again. Let's hope the fight goes well tomorrow.

mmm what else?
Landon is still cute.

I made some amazing baked ziti tonight(sorry to brag. it was really good.) & Now we are watching Wall-e.
Yeah. we are that cool.
It's amazing on blu-ray.
(so is dexter. watch it now.)

I've made like...3 whole friends...
It's pretty exciting.
For being a college town everything around here is pretty low-key. That surprised me.

ok that's your 2 minute update.
Here's us watching wall-e. being awesome.

& then a couple pictures of Landon...

okkkkk
okbye.

She said it better...

2009-03-07T18:07:00.001-08:00

http://hampstergravel.blogspot.com/2009/03/theres-only-us.html

I tried writing about this experience and it didn't work.
So Alishuh apparently tried too and it did work.
There you have it.

I'm serious.
It's proof that the Universe is really on our side.

Love. Love. Love.
Remember the love.

Please, for me...

2009-03-07T16:31:00.000-08:00

Radiohead - Videotape - by Wolfgang Jaiser and Claus Winter

So I have to post this for anyone that appreciates all things beautiful...
Mainly for Alishuh and Jessica because they are sometimes the only people that enjoy the artsy crap that I have to share.
So I could just be overly emotional, but no joke I cried the first time through. Just a little.
But that could also be because I have attached emotions to Radiohead and parking garages.

No matter what the cause was,
This video is amazing.
And I really think you should give it a whirl.

525,600

2009-03-02T01:43:00.001-08:00

Welp, it's official.

As of almost 3 hours ago I have one week left in California.
Next Monday I'm moving to Orlando, Florida.
I had to say my first official "goodbye" tonight to my brother, Chris, because I know he isn't going to be around before I leave.
So I shed my 5 tears and now I'm back to denial.
I have a feeling when I wake up tomorrow things will be different.
I could realize I have at least a months worth of stuff to handle in the next 7 days and start trying to actual accomplish something.

I've really been daydreaming about doing this for months and now that it should actually feel realistic I have no Idea what to think. It's the weirdest feeling. I can usually visualize things pretty well so I don't know what my deal is.

No matter what it's going to happen. (If the pending license is renewed, that is.)
Don't get me wrong I am completely excited. It's just overwhelming being 100% excited 100% nervous 100% stressed 100% full of to do lists 100% TOTALLY impatient.

The looming future is way too loomy for my taste.

Okay...that's a lie. It looks bright and shiny because I'm going to make it that way.
Bright. shiny.
&
full
of
love.

So wish me luck on accomplishing.

With the wind at my back and the sun on my face.

Should You Return.

2009-02-23T01:24:00.000-08:00

Don't be too timid and squeamish about your actions.
All life is an experiment.
The more experiences you make the better.

-Emerson

Thank you, Snarf.

2009-02-09T00:51:00.000-08:00

to go along with my greying hair...

2009-02-07T17:04:00.001-08:00

My niece Sammie and I:
2001.

& 2007.

She doesn't even look the same anymore.
Crazy crazy.

I told you to be patient

2009-02-07T01:35:00.001-08:00

My name is Tracie Ann Miller.
I will be 19 for the next couple of weeks
& I just pulled out my second grey hair.

Thanks, Mom.

Baby Alexander

2009-01-29T16:01:00.000-08:00

Looks vicious.

She doesn't even look like she's having a baby.
She's the only girl I know that could look pretty while having a baby.

Matty letting the nurse know it's baby number 3 for them.

We are made of love.

2009-01-29T01:40:00.000-08:00

When the world welcomes us in,
We’re closer to Heaven than we’ll ever know.

No, seriously.
We are.

Hello world, I have a new nephew.
His name is Alexander Randy Ormond and he is 8 lbs 3 oz and 21 inches of the most extraordinary stuff I have ever seen.
Later tomorrow I will get into details and maybe show a picture of the placenta if you're lucky.
for now I will leave you with this. (Carrie did wonderfully, by the way. It seemed a little too easy...)

"You were a million years of work,"
Said God and His angels, with needle and thread.
They kissed your head and said,
"You're a good kid and you make us proud.
So just give your best and the rest will come,
And we'll see you soon."

He is made of love.

And you were told to glow majestically

2009-01-18T01:19:00.001-08:00

I have decided to cave on one specific blog trend.
The birthday post trend.
I don't know if it'll last forever, butttt
this week was "Alicia" Love Prince's birthday.
She is officially 21
and officially old. So I think it deserves a cheesy "10 things I love about YOU" post.
=] for her birthday we got to go dancing in la
and we got to stay up till 4 playing quelf.(she makes a good angry gnome) and the next day we got to see rachel getting married and eat sushi. woooooo. it was wonderful.
First off, I met Alishuh in my first semester at Byu - Hawaii and for some reason decided to become my insta-friend.
I mean...the first words I ever heard come out of her canadian mouth were "Do you watch So You Think You Can Dance?"
How was she to know that I was and have been completely obsessed since season 1?
Insta-friends. Bam.

So. I'm going to limit myself on my reasons because I'm pretty sure I could write a novel discussing our entire friendship.
I'll give you 10 reasons why I love her and why you should also.

Reason 10:
She's from Canada. & not only is she from Canada, but she's very proud of that fact. She will hold strong to her accent. (which could eventually rub off on you...so catch yourself when you start saying "so-ree" and "uhboat" it's because of HER.) she'll also buy you sweet canadian things like Smarties and scarves with maple leaves, but beware of toques. Anything but toques.

Reason 9:
She knows more about Disney then anyone I've ever met...ever.
That's wonderful.

Reason 8:
She's impulsive. Which leads to awesome things like chameleons that run away (rip Charlie Trevor), Dyed hair, Post-it walls, bb gun welts on her stomach, overnight trips to honlulu with hippies, more lizards that are let go to "roam with the buffalo" in 45 degree weather(no, I don't know what this is in celsius) and lots of other things...that we just don't need to get into.

Reason 7:
People thought we were gay together.
I mean...if this blog doesn't reaffirm those fears I don't know what will.
but I think it's wonderful that we could have a friendship that's good enough to make people think we're the next tegan and sara. & she was my date to fall ball last year. =] (p.s. we're not gay)

Reason 6:
She's the most talented artist I've ever watched in action. Seeing the extra credit drawings fly out last year in what felt like 30 seconds or less was life changing. I didn't know that it was humanly possible to get things out like that. It's amazing.

Reason 5:
She's ridiculously generous. And due to her generosity and her family's I've got to go on the most fabulous vacations to Maui and Disneyland.

Reason 4:
Without getting super overly personal- She has been the most supportive person I've ever had in my life. She's always been there for anything and everything and she's always got good advice and cuddle power.
This one could go on forever...I'll leave it at that.

Reason 3:
She calls me cabbage. =]

Reason 2:
She likes Donald Trump...and I wouldn't be surprised if one day she ruled the world.

Yes.

Reason 1:
Life is better now that she's around.
She's my best friend.

Happy birthday, Alishuh.
i love you.

& love until your hands bleed.

2009-01-18T01:09:00.000-08:00

as for tonight...
lots of things have got me feeling less timid.
I don't want to get into too much detail yet, but I can say that I fully retract my blog asking everyone to tell me what to do with my life. Although, John did give me some really great advice about kicking old ladies in wheelchairs...
I think I've got this one on my own.
Oprah's been helping me out, too, so there's no need to worry.
I highly recommend her spirituality webcast.
I think the biggest thing I learned was that we are not going to be haunted by what we went for.
So I think I'll go for it.
Pray with intention and list movements of grace.

Thanks Op, You're a real pal.

& this isn't from her, but it did help to put more perspective on things.
"Hard times offer the opportunity to ask hard questions, and one of them is the one my friend asked, staring at sweaters and shoes: why did we buy all this stuff? Did anyone really need a flat-screen in the bedroom, or a designer handbag, or three cars? If the mall is our temple, then Marc Jacobs is God. There’s a scary thought."

=[ =/ =]]]

I wrote this yesterday...

2009-01-16T15:49:00.000-08:00

& somehow it saved as a draft instead of posting.
M'bad.

First off. HOORAY FOR THE INAUGURATION THIS WEEK.
nuff sed.

Second. I think you should go listen to the song my fantastic boyfriend wrote me for Christmas because it's wonderful.
www.myspace.com/LandonTSwindoll
He also did a daaaaang good Manchester Orchestra cover. So listen to that, too
I love it. & so will you.
Thank you, Landon. It was a Merry Christmas.

Third. I have to say miracles make my day and seeing the footage of the passengers standing on the wings of the plane on the Hudson was so insane. And also wonderful.
So hooray for miracles.

annnd fourth.
Landon is on a roll with his blogging and I need to pretend to catch up...
Today I saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
I only talked to a couple people about this movie before I went with my mom.
All I heard was that it was extremely long. I asked people if they liked it and it was always iffy shrugs or "yeah it was good"
No one I've talked to were nearly as enthusiastic as I feel like this film deserves. (except for the academy. hah.)
It could be because the last film I saw was Revolutionary Road & that put me in a temporarily harsh depression. So this could have just been the beam of light I needed at the time, but I thought it was beautifully made, unique, inspiring, well acted, and full of goodnesssss.
I want you to go see it right now.
And I want you to get over the fact that is not your standard film length.
It tells so many wonderful stories of the interconnectivity of people and how you can learn endless amounts of things from everyone surrounding you.
The concept of witnessing everyone you love and learn from grow older and die while you grow younger just really hit a strange spot in me. Not because I'm growing younger physically (although it would be sweet to have my body back from when I was 15...) but I think in this time of my life when I'm making tons of decisions all the time it was wonderful to see a character that was so brave, innocent, selfless and genuine.
To be misunderstood and treated differently because of appearance happens all the time. My mom brought up the idea of how different the world would be if all parents and adults treated their children with the respect that Benjamin received at a very young age (when he looked 80+) How much politeness, courtesy and patience he was given with out demanding it profoundly affected the rest of his life. He was pure and had a good heart. I really liked that.
Plus, how gorgeous is Cate Blanchett?
I realize that it was just a movie and I don't want you to think I'm crazy.

I just want you to know
I walked out feeling taller.
and it made me want to accomplish.

I was going to go into Revolutionary Road, but it would be too depressing in comparison.
One last hooray for Benjamin and Daisy! An on screen relationship that was patient, caring and full of love.

I'm serious.

2008-12-28T02:36:00.001-08:00

I need someone to tell me what to do with my life.

Call me.
Or just tell me.
Please.
Seriously...

The Legacy.

2008-11-14T03:26:00.000-08:00

I tried on this ring today at Tiffany & Co.
The one they let me touch cost $38,000...
They let you wear them. Of course the man had to polish it before he handed it over.

I decided 3 things simultaneously.
1. It was the prettiest ring I've ever seen. Let alone touched. or wore.
2. Rich people make me very ill.
3. I want to be proposed to with a ring pop. or a piece of string like the count of Monte Cristo.

I'm sorry. I'm still just in shock.
Diamond drunk.

Political politics politicize polish plah plah plaaah.

2008-10-28T23:48:00.000-07:00

By tomorrow morning I will have officially voted for the first time.
It is a very exciting event for me and I'm not going to lie I'm severely depressed it's absentee cause then I don't get the "I voted" sticker that I've wanted for myself since I was a little kid.
I always used to steal my moms. hahah.

I'm also just really excited for people to shut up about Prop. 8 (no offense.)
But going to BYU and living in California over the summer...I just feel like it's been done to death.
I've now done all that I can do.
That should be that.

Let's just be happy to be alive, okay???

California for Thanksgiving is going to be wonderful.
I officially have my plane ticket.
ba ba ba da daaaaaaa!!!!!
Halloween is also going to be rad.
I'm going with Sarah Palin because it just seems like the best route.
& If you have the ability to be Sarah Palin you take it, right?
I know I am.
Hey, Chris, you're black. You should be Obama.
(Chris is my friend guys. Don't worry I'm not racist...just jealous.)
I also saw a pretty sweet "Sexy Princess Leia" costume online today that's like the outfit she wears when she's jabba the huts slave in Return of the Jedi. So hot.
I decided that I will purchase that someday if I ever decide to become a slut.
Chances are looking pretty slim nowadays, but hey! A girl can dream, right? Right. Because America is the land of freedom.
It's so depressing sometimes. I think watching 6 hours of debates in one day is a bad idea, but I've figured out that if things don't work out within the next 4-8 years I can just move to Canada.
Or the u.k.
They'll only hate me for awhile....I think.
Oh well.
so.
I took pictures of a little girls birthday party.
You should look at them.
web.mac.com/tracieann

Yeah. check that oooout.

I must confess I'm glad to see it go...

2008-10-20T12:11:00.000-07:00

School is always the weirdest time trap.
I always feel like the second I step foot over here I have no frame of reference for anything.
So hey everyone! It's October and I have no idea how that happened.
Midterms are finally over, but I still somehow have a huge exam this week. And another the beginning of next.
it's like secondsies on midterms.

As far as exciting things going on...
I went to Waimea about a week ago with a couple roommates and a friend with her kids...
and we were just lying on the beach when everyone saw a grip load of dolphins in the water
I don't know what possessed me at that moment, but in about 2 seconds flat we all decided to try and swim out to them and the next thing I know I was sprinting into the water then swimming as fast as I could out to them.
I've gotten pretty far out into the ocean before...But I'm pretty sure the buoy at Hukilau is the farthest I've ever been until I decided to try and swim with dolphins.
It was so incredibly outrageous being that far into the open ocean on top of the fact that we were pretty much surrounded by over 20 spinner dolphins.
It was just an experience from a movie. And if I was ever given the chance again I'd do it...just with goggles.
Not being able to see anything underwater was slightly terrifying when I could see shapes moving underneath me (knowing they were dolphins) but still...
Not so comforting. I had Monica doing safety checks about every 30 seconds just to make sure no sharks were coming to rumble with the dolphins.
So we stayed out there for about 45 minutes. and I was really tired after treading for that long and swimming that far.
We did pretty well. and it was seriously amazing...just hard to explain through text.
Ah the best part that was so freaky to me was being able to hear them even when you were above the water...because their crazy echolocation was just such an eerie thing because it just completely fills your eardrums in the strangest way and you can never tell where it's coming from. It was so cool.

Another exciting thing that happened occurred across vast distances...
Landon got to see Copeland perform an acoustic set at Park Ave CD's (completely jealous I know.) and he got to chat with Aaron Marsh afterwards and so as loving and wonderful as he is he called me so I could get to say hi too.
Aaron was kind enough to talk to me for a minute and it pretty much enhanced my entire life about 9%
Which is a lot for one phone call...
So that was wonderful.

and on Saturday night I thought I broke my ankle.
So that was cool.
Turns out it's not broken at all, but it is sprained and bruised and swollen and Al was kind enough to find me a pair of crutches to walk around on at school today.
I know...I'm that cool.

But I'd say that is just about the biggest things going on right about now.
I am SO excited for Halloween.
I am going to be Sarah Palin.
Which is super original, right?
hahah, but then again I'm also thinking about dressing up as Darla from Finding Nemo for another Halloween festivity.
I haven't decided yet.

I have biology now.
hooray for Ribonucleic Acids!

Waimea madness.

Aaron and I chatting like usual.

I was born a Darla.

love.

No ordinary Wednesday.

2008-09-17T14:04:00.001-07:00

As Harold took a bite of Bavarian sugar cookie, he finally felt as if everything was going to be ok. Sometimes, when we lose ourselves in fear and despair, in routine and constancy, in hopelessness and tragedy, we can thank God for Bavarian sugar cookies. And, fortunately, when there aren't any cookies, we can still find reassurance in a familiar hand on our skin, or a kind and loving gesture, or subtle encouragement, or a loving embrace, or an offer of comfort, not to mention hospital gurneys and nose plugs, an uneaten Danish, soft-spoken secrets, and Fender Stratocasters, and maybe the occasional piece of fiction. And we must remember that all these things, the nuances, the anomalies, the subtleties, which we assume only accessorize our days, are effective for a much larger and nobler cause. They are here to save our lives. I know the idea seems strange, but I also know that it just so happens to be true.

and that is why it's my favourite.

Buh buh buh buh

2008-09-08T16:17:00.001-07:00

September 7th, 2008 Asa Christopher Miller was baptized at Temple Beach.
And Enoch Walid was blessed in Sacrament meeting.

Hooray for big Sundays.
Jeff and Kim asked me to take pictures.
So I did.
Check them out
web.mac.com/TracieAnn

Ohhhhhhhhhhhh boy.

2008-09-06T22:37:00.001-07:00

I've been bit by the baby bug.
The bug of doom.
The bug no 19 year old should be bit by.

Sitting at the soccer game with my sister-in-law, Kim, surrounded by about 12 of the cutest kids I have ever seen and ALL of these young mothers.
Makes me want a baby.

This is wrong and I am denying myself a child for now...
but I can't believe how last year I was determined to be single till I was at least 30 and then maybe have a child...or adopt.
and NOW...I haven't even been on the island 2 weeks
and this.

Do not worry, my readers, I have not decided to skip marriage before babies.

I think I just wanted to share my first maternal desire with anyone that wants to read it.

So here it is guys.

I
want
babies.

Thank you.
& goodnight.

Sunday Sunday

2008-08-31T22:48:00.000-07:00

First one at school.
New ward is pretty decent.
It's the entire point...We're pretty much our own community.
So it will be cool to meet alllllll the many people that live on my street.

I met a new girl today that just recently became engaged and I asked her if she had anyone to take her pictures yet.
She said no and asked if I did them...
I told her yes and she immediately came back wanting to see work that I've done before.
Plus I'm doing someone elses on saturday...
And I had nothing to show for it.
Solution:

A fake engagement shoot today last minute for Sarah Welty and Mikey Cray.
They're on my site so check them out and PLEASE give me feedback!
Please please please.

web.mac.com/TracieAnn

In the gallery in folders:
Sarah and Michael
Sarah and Michael 2 &
Kewala Bay. (which is an AMAZING place, by the way.)

please look. I'm terrified for Saturday and it would REALLY help to get opinions.

Live Live Live.

2008-08-25T04:03:00.000-07:00

So.

Photoblog name unnecessary...

web.mac.com/TracieAnn

It's thrown together for now, but it's something I will update often!

check it out

check it out.

And so it begins...

2008-08-22T03:53:00.000-07:00

By some miracle I've discovered my blackberry chord is the same as what I need for my camera.
Bam.

I need a name for my photo blog.

Ideas???

HEY YOU!

2008-08-20T04:29:00.000-07:00

Let's be best friends...

buy me this??
thank you!
=]
...I would never use you JUST for your money...
=]
Seriously though...
=]
I leave in 6 days.
=]

Lets hang out.

This will destroy you

2008-07-29T01:46:00.001-07:00

So gay

2008-07-21T03:13:00.001-07:00

Not really.
I'm just not ready to sleep yet.

So I pose the question

Do I want to dye my hair dark again?

opinions?

or more red.

or just brown.
...there are infinite colors awaiting.

I think I'll go Pink.
or just sleep.

A Light in the Attic.

2008-07-09T03:57:00.000-07:00

When I have a bad day

Shel Silverstein makes me feel better.

When I have a good day

Shel Silverstein makes it better.

NOW add a best friend, yogurtland, MGMT and a lot of dancing.

Today was a great day.
not to mention the best part of all.

summer should never end.

Rockabye

"Rockabye baby, in the treetop.
Don't you know a treetop
Is no safe place to rock?
And who put you up there,
And your cradle too?
Baby, I think someone down here's
Got it in for you."

speaking of which!
Hello cyber world!
I have a new nephew
named Enoch Walid Miller.
and he glows like a new baby.
and I cannot wait to meet him next month.

chin up

2008-07-07T04:01:00.000-07:00

Everyone I know needs to watch this dance
twice (or 7 times like me)
to fully absorb it.

It may be because it's 4 in the morning.
Or it may be that it is seriously AMAZING.
I think it's both.
but SERIOUSLY!
so
so
so good.

Maps.

2008-07-01T17:29:00.000-07:00

So these past 4 days have been the best.
ever.

and now they are over.

...so what do I do now???
=[

secrets secrets.

2008-06-26T01:11:00.000-07:00

A couple things about myself that I have forgotten.
Only a few people know these too...

Number one.

I cry everytime I watch Fantasmic!

no matter who I'm with. Always.

and that doesn't embarrass me.

Number two.

If there's an awkward moment

the Oscar Meyer wiener song is usually the first thing that comes to mind.

Which means it's stuck in my head. a lot.

Number three.

I would do unforgivable things to get with

Ewan Mcgregor

even with the jedi braid.

Number four.

I was raised on Star Wars,

Alien(s), and all of the Terminator films.

It explains a lot.

Number five.

Underworld made me want to shoot a gun

and be a vampire.

The twilight series has only enhanced this desire.

Number six.

I really feel that if I ever went black

I wouldn't go back.

Number seven.

I hate forever 21 with a huge passion.

and I'd proudly get fired for that.

Number hayte.

I am only doing this out of wednesday night boredom

and this is all I've got for now.

Popo.

2008-06-23T23:06:00.000-07:00

today was weird.

weird weird weird.
I'm trying to cure this weirdness by going out tonight.

I got pulled over for the first time ever today.
because i'm retarded...

and when the cop asks me why I tried to run a red light all I can say is
"I'm retarded."

and he let me go for my honesty.

weird weird day.

Tracie lately.

2008-06-23T03:13:00.000-07:00

I know everyone was just SO concerned after my last post about the Gaycie chronicles
I just thought I'd let everyone know that I'm feeling much better.
It still sucks but I just realized how hypocritical I am...so I've moved on.

for a while there I was tempted to talk to Blowy and spill the beans but then I realized that I wasn't 15 anymore.

That was a serious epiphany.

So moving on...
I've been having a huge streak of inspiration this week.
It's been one of those "I can do anything I put my mind to!" times for me...
that's been making me think a lot about what I want to put my mind to...
because I don't really know yet.
[This must sound really dumb.]

but seriously I know I can be successful and I want to be successful in so many things that I get sidetracked.

Right now I'm wondering why I didn't get cast as the star in "Camp Rock"
because I would have owned that girl up and down...
Side note: Don't waste 2 hours of your life like I did watching that movie.

other than that I feel like I've weeded out a lot of people that were making me feel terrible.
Actually I should say they pulled themselves out...which is actually more convenient.
At first I was mad, but now I'm just seriously relieved.
I feel much better all the time.
Bizzare.
It leaves me with more time to eat Chomp =]
Which by the way I will be attending happy hour there tomorrow with Alishuh.
I'm already drooling over the caterpillar rolls and fresh water eel.
sooooooooooooooooooooo goooooooooood.

Anyways this post is all over the place ridiculous so I'm going to sleep cause it's 3:26.

Signing out
I am sheldon.

tomorrow is prom.

2008-05-16T00:42:00.000-07:00

Unfortunately(or fortunately?!) it is NOT my prom.
Although this weekend I will be working at 2 of them.
Oh joy.
Reliving prom minus the fun parts.
I get to watch complete strangers grind all weekend.
Happiness. A real dream come true.
There are perks.
Perk number one-
I had an excuse to go shopping for the 2nd time at the new H&M to get "black work pants"
Perk number two-
I'll be making about $13 an hour...which YOU may be laughing at, but it feels so much better than the 8 I have been making.
...yeah those are the only 2 perks...

So this week in review.
I have an official job.
Forever 21 hired me...but only for part time. I need more money than that.
I had my interview for Nordstrom today...I walked in there thinking it was for B.P. and when I started talking to the manager she told me they weren't hiring...
my interview was for the Rail. hah.
Anyone that may read this PRAY that I get that job.
Seriously...flirting with attractive men...desperately trying to sell clothes to those men...
then folding those clothes.
It's my dream come true...I'd still have my discount and a tiny foot in the door of the company.
it sounds lovely.
The manager was hot.
probably...not a good thing.

Last week I was a very obedient personal assistant for jan lutz.
I've done well to spend the first of 3 paychecks.
yikes.
I am slightly impressed with myself.
I haven't even let myself step into metropark...It just wouldn't end well...
so between H&M and B.P. I've done some good work.

Tomorrow morning I'm going to the beach with Carrie, Fisher & Tyler.
It will be fun.

Even if I complain about having no friends it is really fun hanging out with Carrie and my mom.
They sit through Grey's with me.
It must be love.

Honest to blog.

2008-05-06T09:36:00.001-07:00

So I have been sick the past couple of days. Which is lame, but I guess that's what happens when you don't sleep.

I woke up at 530 today and decided to watch Juno. It was a lovely experience...minus waking up at 530.

Soo anyways TODAY is group interview for cpk.
and tonight is Tony Lucca at plush. AND American Idol!
It's syesha's week to go.
=]

carrie just told me she likes to shake her widgets.
ahahaa
and the battery is dead so I'm going to mentally prepare for many hours to be ready for the interview.

oh btw lishuh, charlotte said she asked brandon about me and he said "She's weird and loud."
Now...I may be weird and loud, but I made sure to be quiet and pretend normal around him.
apparently I have failed.

bitter:sweet

2008-05-01T00:38:00.000-07:00

So today is seriously the first day since I got home where I've sat down at a computer for more than 10 minutes.
So I'll update.

Possible jobs:
California Pizza Kitchen hostess.
Brass Plum slave.
Metropark slave.
New york and company...which I had never even been in before. but they liked me.
hot topic. so embarrassing.
Victoria's secret. that would just be funny.
Gap kids. mmbaby.
Janie and Jack. which would ROCK because they get to wear striped aprons.

and those are the most likely right now.

mmm I got new glasses.
they are red.

mmm...Pandora is my new best friend.

mmm...Yeah that's all the time I've got.
I'm going to go play at brian's now.

lame post. but thats the news!

Don't worry guys...

2008-04-23T04:43:00.001-07:00

I have no problems with Jesus.

I have spending issues.